I've been getting reactions from the recent decision I made: cutting my hair short. You see, I've been having long hair for the past years and people used to see me with a hair not shorter than my shoulder. When I decided to cut my hair short, it was out of impulse. Oh, well, not really. I've been thinking about cutting my hair since I feel so warm and I've been tired combing and tying it up. Plus the hairfall and split ends were, duh, annoying already. One Sunday afternoon, I just decided it that way. Went to the Hair Salon, asked how would i like my hair be cut, I just said: Anything as long as it's above my shoulder. When I telling the lady how I want my hair done, I wasn't thinking about how I would look like after, will I look good or not or how my friends would react to it to seeing me having short hair for the first time (in a long time). My hair wasn't rebonded so I was expecting the "natural-wavy" hair would show off it's talent. But other than that, I wasn't really thinking about the outcome, inshort, I don't care. All I care was to have my hair cut and that's it.
Then, I went to work that evening and some of my friends in the office ask: What happened?! Oh, new look! Why? All sorts of reactions were flooding: Why did you cut your hair? Did you get your heart broken-hearted? Are you desperate? Why, why did you cut your hair short? Are you going through some bad and tough times? What's wrong? What did you eat, why decide to cut your hair? You look younger. You know what, you look mature. That hair makes you look 10 years older. You're like that of the girls in the '60's. You look different. Something's has changed. You should have your hair rebonded. You better shampoo everyday so that it will grow faster.
Getting and hearing all these reactions should make me think: Have I made the wrong decision? Am I ugly with this hair and they just can't say it upfront? Do I really look someone desperate? But no. I feel like I have freed myself from a box of what is conventional, I feel free to do what I want and not minding what other's might say, I have freed myself from insecurities, I feel that I can do more than just cutting my hair, I feel I am myself and I feel I can be more who I want to be.
I am 25 and perhaps I am at the stage of my life where I want change. Yes, CHANGE. It's part of the ritual to start something new by doing something different and cutting my hair is one way. Whatever it's called, I feel it does a lot better to me.
