Stop The Cycle

These words simply strikes the core of me: "The universe puts people in our path to test us, to trigger us, to give us opportunities to evolve past out old wounds, blockages, and insecurities. If you can learn the lesson from these catalysts, you will evolve. Or, you can choose to keep repeating your karma."

Someone is doing a come back. He used to be one of those person who wounded me and brought out the insecurities in me. The person who I thought would build me up but instead did the opposite. It has been three long years and I thought it was over and I have finally moved on. Until one day, he decided to come back, became friends and expressed affection and attention. I, honestly, am overwhelmed with the idea that someone is making me feel special and I like to enjoy it even to the expense of hurting his feelings. I am aware that I have effects on him and he assumed that I still am inlove with him which I don't know really how I feel about him.

The thing is I don't wanna repeat the same karma over and over again. What happened to us was not a one-time event or moment but in the past, our relation was like a cycle. He hurt me, I hurt him, we broke up, reconciled, made up and then broke up. But then again, it's been three years and people change. Really? It takes a lot of effort and courage but I don't think he has that. Well, I don't believe much in "people change" phrase. Lol. Anyways, let's just see what happens next. 
I surely have learned my lessons well. I just look forward to the day when I can say I am totally over him. For now, stop the cycle. 

*happened and written around February of 2014

That Question: What Was My Biggest Achievement

"What Was My Biggest Achievement?" was a question I read from my news feeds. (It's from a friend whom I owe big for helping me with my thesis, back in college).
I pondered and asked myself, so far, what's my biggest achievement? There are actually many things, I can think of, that I have accomplished in the past and some are yet to be done (crossing my fingers). For me, a person can consider one of his greatest achievement in life is to be able to find great friends. These are people who stayed beside you through thick and thin, people who help you become a better person, people who never leave your side despite distance and time constraints, people who wishes you the best in life, people who are born from different parents but let's you feel that you are family. These are people who help you in nourishing yourself as a whole. As I think of the the people I made friends with and who has become a part of me and help me become the person that I am, I feel such achievement for finding treasures. In this imperfect world, we cannot expect to find perfect people but instead look for people with good hearts and intentions that can make you love the life you live, and that's perfect enough. :)